Whew....

Well this week is almost over. I believe it's Thursday. I got thrown off on the right day of the week on Monday and haven't been able to get it straightened out in my mind yet. The chiropractor gave me these vitamins to take and it's packed full of so many different products. Long story short, my daily meds reacted with something in the vitamin which intensified the effect of my daily med. All I can say is, I'm glad my friends got some video footage because I don't remember much of the evening. The wouldn't even let me drive home, that's how bad it was. They wouldn't let me drive nor would they let me stay at home. So the kids and I spent the night with some friends. I wish I could remember more because it sounds rather exciting!

I found out that my back is waaaaaay out of whack. It's just messed up really bad. I'm not sure what all I did to make to so much worse than it was 6 years ago. Possibly the combination of 2 pregnancies, a fire academy, the firefighter combat challenge once a week for 14 weeks, 2 falls on 2 different fires and a significant fall during a basketball game...yeah I would say that covers it. So now I have an extensive treatment plan laid out for me for the next 3 months that will continue several months longer than that if I progress slowly which I'm afraid will happen, especially after seeing how this week has gone.

Also, he has officially filed for the divorce. I got the paperwork from my attorney yesterday. I'm at the point where I really don't know what to expect. The papers said so many different things than what we agreed on and he said he didn't know half of it was on there. So I feel totally clueless with this. I'm just going to try to keep my emotions out of it and keep my heart in check and do the best that I can for my kids and I.

I still want to be the best all around person that I can be. I want to live for the only one that's worth living for. It's hard, but worth it. July was one of the toughest months I've faced, but I'm confident that I didn't face it alone. Had I been alone, I wouldn't have made it.