Everyone needs the opportunity to step away from their current situation and have some "self" time so they can look at everything going on and gain a new perspective on it all. I've done this quite a bit over the past 6 months but it isn't viewed as good by most. I will continue to do it because it helps me and clears my head, heart and soul. Somewhat of a restoration process that cannot fully do it's job in just one instance.
I know I don't want to be hopelessly lost in myself anymore but this is different. It's healthy. I've not always used it for good. I have actually taken full advantage of it on a few occassions and that's why it isn't viewed as good anymore but I am trying to make others view on it turn back to good. I need it. I need my time away. I need my time to think and my time to seek God and my time to just get away and have a good time not worrying about the things that tear me down. And all that is okay.