Time to Begin

It's about time to have a new beginning. I need to start taking care of myself better. Too many times I have let things get to me that shouldn't. I finally have someone in my life who makes me think about what's best for me rather than what's best for everyone else. In order to take care of others, I really need to be able to take care of myself. That's where I must begin.

I need to fall in love with life all over again. I used to enjoy every second and offer myself endlessly to whoever needed whatever. Now I feel hopelessly lost in myself and it's time for change. I'm not a very big fan of change. But...when I find myself at 1230 a.m. laying in the floor in my bunk room with my feet up on my bed, staring at the ceiling just wondering what comes next and if I will feel this way much longer and if it's really worth it all...I know things need to change. It's time. A new beginning is in order.

Where is the best place to begin? Laying in my bunk room floor of course. I'm thinking that it would be even better to begin while laying on my face crying out to God, begging for His forgiveness once again. Yes, that's where to begin.

I'm glad He's bigger! I need Him.

I have others that He's blessed me with and I have to be sure that they know they are blessings to me :)

I need to learn to live, learn to live love, and learn to live love outloud. I've been there before but I've strayed off the path so bad.

My arms are stretched wide open, I'm getting ready to jump. I know God is out there and that's why my arms are stretched wide...so His can catch me as I fall into His grace.

Here I go. Ready to begin.